Homesick

So, since I've come back to Penn State, I've had a hard time adjusting back to school life away from home. The entire week I came back I struggled to be happy, I cried myself to sleep every night because I just couldn't sleep without crying. Waking up in the morning was a pain... I just wanted to be in the comfort of my own room, at my house in Arizona, in the warmth, and with my parents. I know I am 19 years old and I am technically an adult, but still... It was funny, I told my mom the night before I left that I thought it was funny how in the summer I was so excited to be leaving home that I was packed 2 weeks before I needed to leave and was ready to get out, and this second time its the night before I have to leave and I still didn't want to pack. My mom tried to comfort me, saying it was a part of growing up that everyone has to go through.

Eventually, being around the girls in my sorority and being with my friends from school made it easier for me, but still I can't seem to shake this feeling. I keep having trouble sleeping at night. I would say I'm jealous of those who don't get homesick and those who still can't wait to get out, however, I can't. I realize that the reason its so hard for me to let go of home and come to school like it doesn't faze me is because I am a very family oriented person and that I was lucky enough to have a great family growing up. Thinking about all those people that have not been lucky enough to have the best relationships with their parents and with their siblings breaks my heart. I can't imagine it and I am forever grateful that I have been blessed with the family that I have.

Anyways, I just wanted to write this because last night I got really homesick again, and almost couldn't sleep, but I calmed myself down and was able to.

I hope everyone has an amazing day and I'll check in later.

Quote: First love is only a little foolishness and a lot of curiosity.- George Bernard Shaw