BREAKKK/ end of world?

Ok! so IM finally on break!!!! this couldn't have come at a better time! so stressed with all these college apps. haha but yeah. being 18 has been purty dang amazing!. haha um yeah so yesterday we had a half day of school and after i came home and tok like a 2 hour nap, then I got ready and went to my best friends house! it was fun haha I didn't come home till like 11:30+ haha, i dont even know, all I know is when I came home i just fell asleep ^.^ and I didn't wake up till 8:30 this morning and that was only because i had to walk my cutie pie (Ginger, my dog) haha, then i just has to work on college app, and pack for my trip. IM GOING HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS <3. haha immana finally have a WHITE CHRISTMAS again!. its been too long!!!

But yeah my parents decided to get a red eye flight. idk y. haha ugh anyways immana be high off chocolate candy tonight so immana be partying it up tonight lol. but yeah. the only sad part about leaving is that i wont be able to hang out with any of my lovely friends. :( immana miss them soo much. but thats ok cuz its only about 2 weeks that i wont c them for so thats not the end of the world right?

which brings me to my next point haha today is the end of the world right? so either we all died and heaven/hell or where ever you believe deceased ppl go after live, looks exactly like how it did when we were still alive, or it just didn't happen yet , or it was supposed to happen and it hasn't nor will it ever happen. haha so yeah. but um if it ends sometime after i post this then know that i love my friends and family with all my heart. so yeah. basically. lol

now i has to go packing or else im never gonna get dis shiz done lol.

kk baibai for now...

quote of the day: “I was smiling yesterday,I am smiling today and I will smile tomorrow.Simply because life is too short to cry for anything.” ― Santosh Kalwar

post bdayyyy

so last friday was my 18th bday!! im officially legal! I didn't really feel anything different until i turned in a paper that said if you are younger than 18 please have parent guardian signature. blah blah blah haha i looked at it and was like NOPEEEE. hehe it felt good. but yeah I got a lot of amazing stuff and i know this is late and idk if any of those people even read my blog but just saying THANK YOU SOOO MUCH. haha yeah

yesterday was the choir concert. it was alight haaha I enjoyed it and my bestestestes friend from mesquite came to watch and I got to spend time with him.! it was amazing :D... the songs really put me in a christmas mood and I can't wait for christmas <3. my favorite time of year. and i can't wait because I will be going home for the holidays and I will get to have a white christmas <3. haha

recently people have started getting responses from colleges they applied to early! gah it brings so much stress haha. like i get really happy for them then i start thinking crappp i still have sooo many i need to finish and what if this and what if that. haha soo stressful. but then i can't wait till I go off to college. haha but to get there i need to pass this stage. so that means i only have one choice. stay strong, finish this strong and then go offf to a college i want to go off to :P.honestly though i am really excited for college. I can't wait for the independence, the responsibility, the new beginning. I can't waittt. its going to be sooo much fun haha <3.

but yeah im sorry i haven't been on lately. I have just been really busy and stressed. so hopefully after this wave of stress is over ill be on more <3.

baibai haha quote of the day :“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” 
― Mae West

question

So has anyone ever had one of those days where everything seems to be going good and then all of a sudden your mood changes for the worse? idk y but im having one of those moment and its starting to annoy me because i dont have a reason to be upset. at anyone. I just want to take a nap and wake up all happy and energized and stuff. i dont even know. ugh I hate being unhappy.. whats worse. well its not worse because i dont mind. well i mean i would.. ugh here lemme explain first. so the guy that i like isn't talking much because he isn't in a talking mood. this makes me sad because i really like talking to him. but i also realize that being the person he is it is normal for him not to want to talk to people because hell being as talkative as I am i even have those days. therefore i dont really mind if he doesn't talk to me. however I would rather him talk to me. but I want him to b happy so i dont wanna push it.

another thing. I have like six more college apps to write out. and I want to get them done sometime before winter vacation actually before the end of next week therefore I can focus on finals and over break I can have fun instead of worrying bout colleges. =.= so that means these few days immana do a hella lot of essay writing. and have i ever said i HATE writing essays. Like i know i suck at writing. y i am writing a blog? who knows. but i suck at writing essays... but i have to do what i have to do you know.

also, im having a party on saturday. my house is pretty much a mess because of all the college stuff, and homework and school stuff and blankets that i have randomly laying around and close in my room cuz i haven't had time to put shiz away yet. ugh that means on top of hw and studying and college apps immana have to clean my house before saturday. well actually before friday, when my bday is, because friday is gonna be a waste of a day well not really immana be at school, then immana go out to dinner with  my parents, and then prolly clean my house some more. ughhhh GAHHH i freaking out.

anyways. Immana go back to doing hw, like i should be doing, ill prolly get up soon and feed my face but thats ok because food is yummy :D. but yeah. so imman bounce ill check in again sometime soon (hopefully).

Quote of the day: “The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.” 
― Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

one week

one week for what you ask? TILL MY BDAYYYY!!!! haha i can't waiittttttt. Im going to have a party on the 8th since more people will be free on that saturday I feel like. anyways tonight i am extremely busy writing scholarship apps so im hopefully all done with college stuff by my bday. Anyways im like obsessive with christmas music right now <3 haha

ok so Im really bad at writing a blog i realize that haha. Cuz i feel like i have absolutely nothing to say. well some days i do and some days i dont. and today i feel like i really dont but then the past few days i haven't so i haven't been posting and i felt really bad cuz i said i was gonna try to post every day. and today my post is really laid back hence all the bad spelling and non real words...

omg so today like this morning i was really energetic because it was one of ma really good friends bday and i had a gift for him and everything then by like my last class i was sooooooooo tired and then when i came home i was just exhausted but i couldn't sleep so i was in a bad mood and stuff and then the guy that i liked made it all better haha :P

so yeah i guess this is it. and i  not gonna post a pic today cuz i look like rubbish so yeah. (btw i love that word

hey hey hey

soooo its wednesday. and when today is completely over the rest of the week should go by uber fast! well Im hoping at least. anyways. ummm my mom just got me some ice cream and i love it. haha i feel like such a pig now ! anyways im studying gov and its kinda boring but interesting does that make sense. idk haha i feel like im just being really random. theres not much to say cuz the past three days have been boring ish haha :D but they have been good I just wanted to post something to check in.

anyways ill go back to studying :D

quote of the day: “I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” 
― Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets

Hot Pot

So I am back, as i said i would be. although not much more interesting has happened since noon. haha
I continued working on some gov homework and some english vocabulary. Then I went to college apps. It wasn't that fun haha and for most of that time I not disturbed by my parents haha. My mom ended up going out and getting me a boba which was amazing :D haha i love boba!!!!!!. After that I got really tired so I took like a 40 minute nap and half way through it my mom woke me up and gave me a piece of chocolate haha. It was delicious!!!

anyways i come home from hot pot cuz my  mom and I went to my neighbors house to eat hot pot and it was delicious!!!! <3 haha yummy yummy food. haha I had to make sure I stopped myself before I ate too much or else I wouldn't be able to wear that shirt i bought yesterday from H&M haha. that would be really sad. ... Anyways when i come back ready to sit down and finish one of my college essays. my dad puts Lord of the Rings on. (mind you we are lord of the rings fanatics) and im sitting here like really really really?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! gahhhhh so im just sitting here watching it and typing my blog no big deal haha.

gah i keep getting distracted by the movie haha. its amazing!!!! although so much blood and guts and fighting and dead people. and dead elephants and dead dragons and dead horses. its really sad. Anyways haha the movie is almost do the end of The Return of the Kings haha. anyways. I have to go back to writing my college essays. and my dad just turned on football. sooooo haha i mean i enjoy watching it but i dont quite understand all of it.haha sorry for this randomness but my dog is licking my dads face and its really cute and my dad keeps telling her not to lick his face and to lick mine. im just sitting here laughing my head off haha.

Lord of the Rings is back on, dog went back to licking my dads face. Orlando Bloom is SOOOOO ATTRACTIVE haha . alright i shall watch the end of this and go back to college applications. haha

baibai for now lovely people.

quote of the day: (again?) “Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one.” 
― C.S. Lewis

HOLAAA

So.. im extremely hyper right now because i just had a mouthfull of whipped cream hehe ^.^ and then i ate a cutie because the whipped cream was really sweet  haha. anyways .

This morning i woke up to my dad saying "Its 8! you gotta get up" ... I was trying to sleep in too =.= oh well. haha i had to take my doggie out for a walkie. haha but yeah. so anyways I can't wait for college. Like im getting more and more excited to go haha. I can't waiittttttt. wheeee!!!!!!. lol

OMG OMG OMG so im listening to this song that I am absolutely in LOVE with haha. its called Ride by SoMo. everybody should go listen to it! its amazing!!!!!

Oh. and btw for those who dont know, i used to be crazy obsessed with kpop. and i still love it now its just im not a kpop addict haha. I mean i still love my fav group and i still have my husband haha. that leads me to the point of this paragraph haha. My husband is coming out with a solo album! I can't waittt. you all should check it out. His name is Yoseop (yoseob) haha. he is from Cube Entertainment and he is also from the group B2ST in korea! It is amazing and i love his voice so much.

Anyways. my mom just walked behind me and was like "Do you have a blog? o.0" and I was like yeah haha and she asked me what it was called and stuff and I was like why.. haha she asked didn't i want ppl to follow it and I was like OF COURSE. i just dont think i need my mom and dad to follow it haha. thatd be kinda weird. not that i would mind but itd be weird haha. and she walked away lol.

anyways this was a lil longer then last nights but since its still barely 12 i think i might write another post tonight with more to day since nothing interesting has happened up till now except me doing hw haha

Black Fridayyyy

So today I went shopping with my bestestest friends in the whole wide world. Realizing that this was the last time we would be guaranteed this opportunity to do so. Next year... going off to college might prevent such an ideal situation. Therefore we really wanted to make this year count. So we went out at about 9:30 am and we didn't get home till about 9 pm. We shopped for about 4 hours then we went out and had dinner then we played some basketball and just hung out for a while.

We also... following tradition after buying clothes... went home, but on what we got and did a mini fashion show :D.

its a quicky tonight guys sorry. im really tired from a long day of shopping so Ill write a longer one tomorrow hopefully .. anyways GOODNIGHT <3

quote of the day : “I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” 
― Marilyn Monroe

Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone.

I am so thankful for the life I was given, for the family I have, for the amazing friends that i care so much about. I am thankful for everything I have.

I feel like sometimes its hard to be thankful when comparing ourselves to everyone else. I feel like we all need to slow down and be thankful for the little things. It will make a big difference. I know I am not always thankful for what I have or what I get and I take a lot of things for granted, but I'm starting to realize how lucky I really am.

Today is just a short day because its a holiday and I also have college apps to work on. therefore imma bounce till the next time!!!!!

quote of the dayyy: “You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching, Love like you'll never be hurt, Sing like there's nobody listening, And live like it's heaven on earth.” ― William W. Purkey

hehe ^.^

So today was great. My classes went well and after school I got to walk around a bit with the guy that I really like. It was wonderful. yeah. My chest pains have not come back so thats another good thing.

I really dont know what else to write haha. So ill just be random :D. like i always am.
anyways we are starting a happiness unit in AP Psychology and I am really looking forward to what we are going to be doing.

I'm also listening to a Hairspray song and that is bringing back a ton of memories from when I was in the school musical last year at my high school which we also did Hairspray. It was one of the best experiences of my life :D. It was so fun to be able to make amazing new friends as well as be able to do three things I absolutely love! Dance! Sing! and Perform! I enjoyed every second of every minute of practice and I am so happy and thankful I was given the opportunity to participate in the musical.

Other than that um. yeah Im freaking out because there are a few people that want me to apply out of country to college (apply to the UK.. England mainly and maybe one or two in another area), and i would really love going there, but there is one thing that is kind of stopping me from going all out. I would hate to move that far away from my family and friends. <3 Especially if something happens and develops into something more by the end of this year. It would be heartbreaking. But who knows. any ideas? if i have any readers? lol

Oh and I know its a tad early but I've started writing Christmas cards. The only reason I've started now is because I hand draw all my cards because I feel like that is more personal and it means more. Therefore I have had to ask all my close friends what cartoon characters are their favorites so I can start writing the cards. I have so much to do.

In addition to that I have to write like a bajillion more personal statements and college application essays. soo stressful. I can't wait till second semester. well Actually i look at second semester and the end of the year with a bittersweet feel. This is because i will be really happy to finally finish this chapter of my life and be able to start afresh in college. I will also be looking forward to moving out of my parents house and becoming more independent. Another thing to look forward to is that I will be taking classes that I actually want to take to help me later pursue my career dream. but... then there are the sad parts. I will most likely be leaving all my friends to go to the college of my choice. It will probably be across the country or maybe across the ocean. who knows at this point. and then I will also be leaving the security of my home and home city where I grew up. Finally, and i know i shouldn't be because its high school and things rarely work out but... im sad because i finally found a guy that i really really really like and who likes me a lot too at the right time and. i've finally been genuinely happy. but i guess that last point will happen no matter what school i chose to go to unless i chose to stay close to home.

anyways i think im done writing for now. maybe one tonight but i doubt it.. ill be busy with college apps and ill try to add pics of my nails today since i forgot the other day. ^.^

quote of the day: "The best proof of love is trust."  -Dr. Joyce Brothers 

Slacking

So, I have been slacking already with this blog thing. Ill try to be consistent though. Its been a busy few days with our guests over from England and whatnot. Anyways they left last night at midnight and right now I am currently at the hospital volunteering. Recently not much new has happened. My chest pains have gone away again. so thats a good thing.

Now i have recently started focussing back on college apps and trying to raise my grades. Not that they are bad, but they could be better.
Anyways this is a really random post but yesterday I got my nails done soooo happy haha. ill try posting a pic when i get home if i remember. Anyways i has to go continue serving my community :P

Love and be loved <3

Friends from england

Sup guyzzzz!!!

So! exciting news!!! Well for me at least! Haha. Today, we had families friends come over from England!. It is so entertaining listening to them talk. I love their vocabulary as well as their accent :D. haha yeah so that happened. They are staying here till sunday. Sadly they cannot stay with us till Thanksgiving. But yeah. that was my exciting news for today :P

Other than that... update on my chest pain issues. ummm. They were a lot worse than last night. And the inhaler that I received from my doctor to use for now.. didn't help. Well not completely.. it helped right then in the moment opening up my airways allowing me to actually take a regular breath in and out without too much pain. but, after about 10 minutes, it wore off and it was hard, once again, to breath/talk/laugh. which sucks. oh well ill c if i can live through this :P

Chest Pains

Hi guys. that is if anyone is reading this. If not then I self :D. Anyways last friday I went to the hospital because i had chest pains all day and it hurt to breath, it hurt to talk and to laugh. For me that sucks because i love talking and I laugh all the time. anyways the doctor couldn't figure out what was wrong with me so she suggested that I do a breathing treatment for asthma. It did help some, i could breath in without as much pain. But there was still pain. The next day and the days following, I did not experience any pain.... Until today. This morning I had a really bad headache but it was on and off so I just went through the day and tried ignoring it, but then by my 5th hour class, my chest started to hurt. I noticed because I laughed at something and I realized that my chest hurt. I was hoping i was just imagining it but then the pains got worse in 6th hour. and later when I got home. Its 8:30 ish now and it still hurts. I used the inhaler the doctor prescribed for me but it didn't help much. 

The pain isn't from the outside, the pain is inside. It feels like, idk if anyone else knows what im talking about, but after you cough really really hard and your chest hurts on the inside for a second after. Except with it hurting now, its constantly.. even if I am just breathing... sadness :( i hope i find out what it is soon and i hope it nothing serious. 

Anyways other than that my day was alright. I can't say it was the best, I can't even say it was good. it was just a day in my life :P 

Remember Be Happy!

Quote of the day: "Love is a moment that lasts forever..." Julie Wittey

first post ^.^

HIIII GUYSSS!

im so excited haha this is my very bery first post. I doubt that many people will see this, but its ok because I feel like as of right now this blog is for me and people that really care. Therefore id rather have a few viewers that really care than have a bajillion that dont really care. ^.^ yeah. I'm just going to be using this to write anything I have to say. Anything thats on my mind. Maybe as I continue and this becomes more natural for me to write, I could eventually start blogging about other things. but for now its just about me, my life, and i guess eventually i could do blogs about what bugs me or what are things that definitely get my attention. :P so yeah thats it for now. I know short blog hehe