So, since I've come back to Penn State, I've had a hard time adjusting back to school life away from home. The entire week I came back I struggled to be happy, I cried myself to sleep every night because I just couldn't sleep without crying. Waking up in the morning was a pain... I just wanted to be in the comfort of my own room, at my house in Arizona, in the warmth, and with my parents. I know I am 19 years old and I am technically an adult, but still... It was funny, I told my mom the night before I left that I thought it was funny how in the summer I was so excited to be leaving home that I was packed 2 weeks before I needed to leave and was ready to get out, and this second time its the night before I have to leave and I still didn't want to pack. My mom tried to comfort me, saying it was a part of growing up that everyone has to go through.
Eventually, being around the girls in my sorority and being with my friends from school made it easier for me, but still I can't seem to shake this feeling. I keep having trouble sleeping at night. I would say I'm jealous of those who don't get homesick and those who still can't wait to get out, however, I can't. I realize that the reason its so hard for me to let go of home and come to school like it doesn't faze me is because I am a very family oriented person and that I was lucky enough to have a great family growing up. Thinking about all those people that have not been lucky enough to have the best relationships with their parents and with their siblings breaks my heart. I can't imagine it and I am forever grateful that I have been blessed with the family that I have.
Anyways, I just wanted to write this because last night I got really homesick again, and almost couldn't sleep, but I calmed myself down and was able to.
I hope everyone has an amazing day and I'll check in later.
Quote: First love is only a little foolishness and a lot of curiosity.- George Bernard Shaw
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Saturday, January 04, 2014
Youtube channel maybe?
Hello!!!!!
So as some of you may or may not know, I used to have a youtube channel that I posted a few videos on, however, they were really boring and not very interesting. So now as the new year has arrived, I have become more and more determined to start filming for a youtube channel. It doesn't really matter to me how popular it becomes, I would like to get thousands of views and subscribers, but mainly it will be a way for me to document the person I am and how I change throughout college and something for me to look back on when I'm older. I dont really know what its gonna be about yet. But I do have a few things in mind. Ill keep you all updated. :P hopefully it will happen.
Thats it for today. not many interesting things happening. haha
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha
So as some of you may or may not know, I used to have a youtube channel that I posted a few videos on, however, they were really boring and not very interesting. So now as the new year has arrived, I have become more and more determined to start filming for a youtube channel. It doesn't really matter to me how popular it becomes, I would like to get thousands of views and subscribers, but mainly it will be a way for me to document the person I am and how I change throughout college and something for me to look back on when I'm older. I dont really know what its gonna be about yet. But I do have a few things in mind. Ill keep you all updated. :P hopefully it will happen.
Thats it for today. not many interesting things happening. haha
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha
Thursday, January 02, 2014
New years, New starts
Hello all,
So this is January 2nd, 2014!!! Can you believe it? It feels like 2013 just started and we are already in the new year. Time really does begin to fly when you get older. I feel like that is partially because we end up getting so caught up in what needs to be done and "there's so much to do, so little time" that we forget to breath and enjoy the little moments. That we forget whats its like to spend time with those we care about. Now... partially, I must admit is due to the fact that most people have bad time management. I am the perfect example, I waste my time procrastinating and then when it comes time to actually do something I always feel rushed. So this year Im going to try and stop that.
New years resolutions always made sense to me to make.... And I would succeed in making them. Thats about as far as I got. Its very disappointing because I had made all these plans that were very achievable and yet I hadn't accomplished a single one because I felt like there was always time to finish them later. SO... this year I have made a promise to myself that I will finish them. Every single one of them. In fact, I have made a reminder for all of them that require doing daily and I have made a list that I will look at every so often to make sure I am staying on track.
I realized that being a college student I have to start taking responsibility for my life's choices, as well as start making a plan for what I want to do in the future and what kind of life I want to live. So this year, I have made a resolution, to keep all the promises I make, no matter how hard it is. But it is part of being an adult right? You have to keep your word or else thats all they become, empty words, no meaning behind them. And I don't want that to happen. 2014 is the year that I will have full control over my life. Every little thing that happens I will take responsibility for. Also I will try to make this year the best year so far. Meaning I will make my relationships with my family and friends stronger than I have ever.
C ya l8r!!!!!!
So this is January 2nd, 2014!!! Can you believe it? It feels like 2013 just started and we are already in the new year. Time really does begin to fly when you get older. I feel like that is partially because we end up getting so caught up in what needs to be done and "there's so much to do, so little time" that we forget to breath and enjoy the little moments. That we forget whats its like to spend time with those we care about. Now... partially, I must admit is due to the fact that most people have bad time management. I am the perfect example, I waste my time procrastinating and then when it comes time to actually do something I always feel rushed. So this year Im going to try and stop that.
New years resolutions always made sense to me to make.... And I would succeed in making them. Thats about as far as I got. Its very disappointing because I had made all these plans that were very achievable and yet I hadn't accomplished a single one because I felt like there was always time to finish them later. SO... this year I have made a promise to myself that I will finish them. Every single one of them. In fact, I have made a reminder for all of them that require doing daily and I have made a list that I will look at every so often to make sure I am staying on track.
I realized that being a college student I have to start taking responsibility for my life's choices, as well as start making a plan for what I want to do in the future and what kind of life I want to live. So this year, I have made a resolution, to keep all the promises I make, no matter how hard it is. But it is part of being an adult right? You have to keep your word or else thats all they become, empty words, no meaning behind them. And I don't want that to happen. 2014 is the year that I will have full control over my life. Every little thing that happens I will take responsibility for. Also I will try to make this year the best year so far. Meaning I will make my relationships with my family and friends stronger than I have ever.
C ya l8r!!!!!!
Accept what people offer. Drink their milkshakes. Take their love.
Wally Lamb
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